Burnt

Have you ever run into someone in your life who seeks to destroy your confidence? I have to admit, those type of people are usually few and far between so when I come across them it is shocking and emotionally damaging. Camelot opened on Friday and, in my opinion, was amazing. We sang well, we danced well, and overall put on a great 3 hour show. It was so much fun. I was home by midnight but was on such a high I couldn't fall asleep. Yesterday, as I was finishing putting on my nymph make-up (extremely extensive and glittery) a fellow cast mate said something about my singing that cut deep. I couldn't help cry. I was shocked, sad, and angry. This was moments before I was supposed to walk on stage and sing the same song again. There are moments in our lives that humble us. I was humbled. I can't even begin to tell you how hard I have worked on my voice. Singing is my passion, my life, and I love to share it. Isn't it interesting how one statement can kill all that hard work in a matter of seconds? I second guessed myself through out last nights performance as if I had never practiced the song. It doesn't matter what she said, however, she taught me a big lesson. "think before you speak". Yes, I usually do not say mean things to others but I sometimes don't pay attention to every word that is coming out of my mouth. I will be better. I will practice harder and I will learn to take the negative with the positive. Sometimes I forget that some people may not like me... Ha ha, as if I believe every person I come across likes me. If you live in Albuquerque, come and see the show. It is worth all 3 hours you will spend in the theater. Enjoy your Sunday and have a merry Christmas.